Three cheers to five years...

Today would've been our five year anniversary. I really tried not to dwell on it because it doesn't bother me THAT much but with today has come some internal thinking. It also doesn't help that I've dreamt of his daughter several times this week. Did I make the right decision in every decision regarding "us"? Did I learn all I could from that "relation-shit"? I'd like to say the answer is yes. Maybe it's the human nature in me to always question, even if it's just that sliver of question.

Well I've been listening to Pandora all morning to break up the monotony of my I-pod. This song caught my ear and I about shit my pants when I saw the title. I'll post the lyrics too so you can get the full gist.



"Three Cheers For Five Years"

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now

Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight

How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to